by Marie Calder Ricks

This Spring I’m discovering I am no longer “just green” in my feelings about life. The energy for life and the perspective of love is different, slower and deeper perhaps. I don’t know if it is becoming a grandmother, or that my hair is lightening with significant amounts of white and silver, or maybe because people are looking at me differently when I speak and share my heart.
Whatever the reason, I sense I’m moving from being “straight green” more towards the shades of emerald, sage, and avocado. I’ll tell you why this matters and what I’m trying to understand!

More and more often I’m being put in an enclosure. I will someday be put in a box, just like a jewel, and kept there precious indeed, but not much use for anything else. The box will eventually be a coffin, or maybe a smaller “assisted living” abode, or maybe just the confines of physical limitations or mental incapacities. But even as those threats are very real in my upcoming seasons of life, so also is the opposing clarity of jewel-like vision which seems to recently accompany every introduction to a stranger.
How it is that you come to see into people instead of just at them? And when you are introduced you discern sorrows, past hurts, and current conflicts written on their very countenances, with a transparency not perceived in earlier, greener days? And how is it that people become more precious with every encounter until you yearn to lift the sorrows you recognize in others' lives?

Sage
Kitchen herbs smell--mostly good and sometimes scrumptiously so. My parents grew sage in their country garden. It is a perennial plant, a favorite of bees in the spring, and truly succulent when added to the cavity of a turkey on holidays and roasted slow while relatives and erstwhile friends reach out to know each others' souls again.

But then sage is only to be added sparingly to have its most delicate effect upon food. I must likewise learn to be astute about the amount of sagacious wisdom I proffer when it is not sought for. And even when it is, I must be prudent to encourage and not criticize, let others learn and grow for themselves, and understand that much of what I know is to make me far-sighted, not anyone else.
Truly, my elderly visiting teacher was correct when she said, “Marie, the day will come when your beauty moves from your face to your heart! And others will come to value you, when they need you most, because of your soul instead of your façade.”
Avocado

Being somewhat like an avocado also signals that I have a pit of sorrow in the middle of my soul, something which comes to all who live long enough to have loved well and walked the life’s road far enough to know the effects of panic, sorrow, pain, and struggle.
And So On to Other Shades
And so if I have added additional jade shades to my soul, I’m glad I’m no longer “just green.” I’m glad that occasionally others see me for these shades I have learned to wear somewhat well: the shades of emerald, sage, and avocado.

Sage photo used with permission of SHX666, sxc.hu.
©2010 Marie Calder Ricks/www.houseoforder.com
2 comments:
Thanks for sharing, that was beautifully written!
Nice article, and well written. Thanks for posting it.
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